Lets get over the serious stuff first Weigh in 141Kg or 310lb, under 300 is not far away. This last weight loss journey of mine because it will be my last I have very small goals and no time limit. Some people set themselves a time to lose a certain amount of weight that does not work for me. I found this out trying to do some of the Sparkpeople challenges in my team I didn't cope with the time limits for some reason my body loses weight in Chunks and plateaus or even goes up in between. I weigh myself every day this keeps me accountable but I don't worry too much about what it says as I know that my weight can fluctuate up to 3 kilo's or 6lb overnight I just put it down to that's interesting and keep at it I have become very accepting of my strengths and weaknesses and I play to my strengths and keep away from my weaknesses. This is not a competition in how good my willpower is, its about learning about myself and accepting who I'am and dealing with why I feel the need to eat to excess and what it means to me to lose weight be healthy and deal with emotions in a different way.
Exercise this is the first thing I let go when I get stressed or short of time and the weird part is that I really enjoy exercise. It makes me feel so much better I like the feeling of being fit and energetic. I like feeling strong and I have a competitive nature. I believe its because I was always a big girl so there was no real expectation of me to do well at sport and that meant that I don't have any expectations that I will succeed at an exercise program.
My parents followed my younger brothers sport because they had the potential for playing the higher grades and playing for Australia which they did, because there was no expectation of me to do well I wasn't followed or given the attention I craved so when it comes to exercise I have no real expectation of doing well or receiving attention for my efforts I find exercise a chore because I feel there is no reward I need to change my way of thinking and understand the reward that exercise will give me in this time of my life. I don't need to be good at it or be the fastest the most skilled the one that wins the game. I just need to do it and the reward will come, the reward will be a personal best the feeling of being strong and fit, the only person I need to compete with is myself.
Do you have that feeling everybody is looking at me, I don't look right in workout clothes, why am I out in public puffing and panting sweating getting a rash in all sorts of places and feeling really uncomfortable and out of place. I shouldn't be here I don't fit in with the rest I am making a spectacle of myself. I will never be able to do that well enough I am not this sort of person I don't work out its too hard why am I doing this to myself. I know exactly how you feel but remember it won't always be like this you will get better and be better ask for help employ a personal trainer for a few sessions if you can, just start and make sure you tell people what you are doing and you will find you will get plenty of help and advice and encouragement, there are some really good people out there that are only too happy to help.
Exercise is essential in a weight loss program but it needs to suit you and your lifestyle and you need to be able to do it forever, there are all kinds of exercise you can do for some it will be moving more, for others it will be dedicating 30mins a day to walk, for others it will be some type of gym. The benefits of exercise far outweigh all the excuses we can find not to do it and it really needs to be a part of our lives if we are to keep the weight off.
I like to swim and I got back into the pool today after not swimming for a month or so my only excuse is that I have been studying and working but I realise more and more that just because I have a very strange expectation that I have to be good at it to do it. I must schedule exercise as a part of my life. I don't have to be the best I just have to do it.
Have a great day
Ann
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Keep on Keeping on
I wanted to talk about being able to continue the journey of weight loss and how do I keep going everyday without throwing in the towel. How do I keep it as a priority everyday when life can get in the way.
It has been a tough month for me and I am sure that everybody has these I have been back at University for a couple of months and I have one month to go its a very intensive way of doing things they cram a lot of work into a very short period of time and as always I had the best intentions for the semester and started off really well for the first month started slipping badly in the second month so here I am now having to put some serious work in for the last month were I have assessment due and exams to sit.
Weight loss can be like this as well the one thing that I let slip is my exercise it seems to be the one thing that I let go as soon as things get a bit tough and really its the one thing I should make sure is a part of my daily schedule like getting out of bed or having a shower. Because I always feel better after, very positive the endorphins check in and things look great for the rest of the day.
I have struggled this month with life in general, getting me into situations I would much rather avoid, being late with assessment not as switched on at work and not doing any where near enough exercise so I will now have to start again with my fitness. Is this a big reason why I am overweight or does being overweight contribute to the anxiety and depression maybe this is a question for the scientific researchers. Does my personality contribute to me being overweight or does the fact that I am overweight contribute to the feelings of anxiety and depression.
I have a stubborn streak and I am sure it contributes to the situations I get into and it is not good for my weight loss as well as being a problem for my health as my body does not like certain foods. I have all the best intentions to lose weight and be healthy but sometimes I break out I get what I call stubborn and I go well why can't I eat what I want to why can't I have that cheese cake or chocolate bar I deserve a treat just like anybody else I am sick of this and I break out as I did yesterday and I am paying for it today. Is this just the child in us throwing a tantrum and stamping our feet and feeling really silly for being so obnoxious and indulgent. I think it is exactly what I do every binge is just throwing a tantrum against the world and all those tantrums do is hurt me but then again sometimes I need to express how I am feeling I just need a better way of doing it.
Recognising that's what we are doing helps allot and next time when I decide to throw a tantrum I need to do it differently, call a friend, put on some really loud music do some exercise yell at the traffic I need to find a better way of expressing my feelings and anxiety because shoving inappropriate food in my mouth is not working for me.
My weight loss journey has been full of surprises, I have been focusing on myself and why I do things and how I use food for a lot of other things not just as nutrition. It can be a little uncomfortable facing things about yourself you had ignored or had swept under the carpet. If I want to be successful I have to face a lot of those things that are uncomfortable because eating has been my way of hiding them and if I am not hiding the things that make me feel uncomfortable with food I have to find another way to deal with emotions and situations that I normally would use food to deal with.
My attitude is that I may have a day every now and again that I don't do so well with my calories and what I eat but if I can have more days doing well living a healthy lifestyle eating foods that I know are good for me and doing some deliberate exercise I will string a few of them together and then a week and then a month it has been about six weeks now since the last time so with a bit of luck over a period of time my indulgences will be kept for special occasions and not be a regular occurrence.
So to improve my health and lose the weight I want to lose I needs to just Keep on Keeping on, make changes when I need to and remember what I have learned about myself and living a healthy lifestyle and practice being healthy everyday.
Have a great day
Ann
It has been a tough month for me and I am sure that everybody has these I have been back at University for a couple of months and I have one month to go its a very intensive way of doing things they cram a lot of work into a very short period of time and as always I had the best intentions for the semester and started off really well for the first month started slipping badly in the second month so here I am now having to put some serious work in for the last month were I have assessment due and exams to sit.
Weight loss can be like this as well the one thing that I let slip is my exercise it seems to be the one thing that I let go as soon as things get a bit tough and really its the one thing I should make sure is a part of my daily schedule like getting out of bed or having a shower. Because I always feel better after, very positive the endorphins check in and things look great for the rest of the day.
I have struggled this month with life in general, getting me into situations I would much rather avoid, being late with assessment not as switched on at work and not doing any where near enough exercise so I will now have to start again with my fitness. Is this a big reason why I am overweight or does being overweight contribute to the anxiety and depression maybe this is a question for the scientific researchers. Does my personality contribute to me being overweight or does the fact that I am overweight contribute to the feelings of anxiety and depression.
I have a stubborn streak and I am sure it contributes to the situations I get into and it is not good for my weight loss as well as being a problem for my health as my body does not like certain foods. I have all the best intentions to lose weight and be healthy but sometimes I break out I get what I call stubborn and I go well why can't I eat what I want to why can't I have that cheese cake or chocolate bar I deserve a treat just like anybody else I am sick of this and I break out as I did yesterday and I am paying for it today. Is this just the child in us throwing a tantrum and stamping our feet and feeling really silly for being so obnoxious and indulgent. I think it is exactly what I do every binge is just throwing a tantrum against the world and all those tantrums do is hurt me but then again sometimes I need to express how I am feeling I just need a better way of doing it.
Recognising that's what we are doing helps allot and next time when I decide to throw a tantrum I need to do it differently, call a friend, put on some really loud music do some exercise yell at the traffic I need to find a better way of expressing my feelings and anxiety because shoving inappropriate food in my mouth is not working for me.
My weight loss journey has been full of surprises, I have been focusing on myself and why I do things and how I use food for a lot of other things not just as nutrition. It can be a little uncomfortable facing things about yourself you had ignored or had swept under the carpet. If I want to be successful I have to face a lot of those things that are uncomfortable because eating has been my way of hiding them and if I am not hiding the things that make me feel uncomfortable with food I have to find another way to deal with emotions and situations that I normally would use food to deal with.
My attitude is that I may have a day every now and again that I don't do so well with my calories and what I eat but if I can have more days doing well living a healthy lifestyle eating foods that I know are good for me and doing some deliberate exercise I will string a few of them together and then a week and then a month it has been about six weeks now since the last time so with a bit of luck over a period of time my indulgences will be kept for special occasions and not be a regular occurrence.
So to improve my health and lose the weight I want to lose I needs to just Keep on Keeping on, make changes when I need to and remember what I have learned about myself and living a healthy lifestyle and practice being healthy everyday.
Have a great day
Ann
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Weigh In Post 2
I have been able to record that kick start I weighed in at 142.8 kilo's or 314lb. I must admit this is pretty normal for me I tend to lose weight in chunks and because I haven't really lost anything for about a month this is not surprising. I have started to do some regular exercise again and this has probably helped.
The one thing that you do need to be aware of is to adjust how much you are eating as you lose weight. This week it has been the rotisserie chicken one of my favourites I have had to give it up I always overeat when I get it and I never take the skin off and obviously I have lost enough weight that it has now become a problem. So I have now taken it out of the calorie equation I have kept avocado and cheese in I have done this because I know the chicken is a problem for me and keeping my potion size under control.
Some people can control their portions no matter what the food is I can't I have a couple of foods that I really struggle with so I choose not to eat those particular foods. This is not for everybody but it works for me.
As a part of my journey I found that my weight loss had stop ed and my weight was actually going up even though I was sticking to my calorie count and doing some exercise this has happened before, so I started doing some investigation and it had been mentioned before by a friend and by others trying to lose weight it was called insulin resistance. A lot of my family suffer from type 2 diabetes's including 2 siblings a brother and a sister and some more distance relatives suffered from type 1 diabetes. I am not diabetic but I had 24 out of 26 of the symptoms of insulin resistance. This means that I am a candidate for type 2 diabetes and that some foods are a problem for me they create like an allergic reaction inside my body and I create too much insulin. To find this out at 48 it was a great eureka moment and at the same time it was why didn't anybody tell me about this before my life could have been so different.
Having this insulin resistance problem means that I have to be careful with certain foods. No Sugar or Grains in any form I also have to eliminate potato and be careful with other root vegetables. I have been able to re-introduce brown rice to my diet but definitely not white rice. I am careful with fruit No high carbohydrate fruits like banana's or melon's I stick to berries apples and citrus but only 3 small serves a day and always with protein to counteract the sugar. This new way of eating has made such a difference in my life I feel so much better I don't get the emotional highs and lows and my fluid retention has reduced significantly, my weight loss has been very regular since I started this new way of eating. I do have a relapse every now and again but the scale reminds me why it is a problem if I do indulge in foods I shouldn't and it takes about 2 weeks to fix it.
I started this blog talking about food I have trouble with so I avoid that particular food because I know I have no control its all or nothing, others seem to be able to indulge certain foods within their calorie range and therefore nothing is forbidden and then also the other extreme were they believe that they can never eat outside of a very strict diet. This is definitely a personal journey and you need to do what works for you and don't let anybody influence you in thinking that you need to do it differently or my favourite "a little bit wont hurt or you have been so good you should have a reward"" I made it especially for you or eat up I don't want any of it left or don't you like xxxx its my favourite" be polite but firm and that you are in control of what goes in your mouth. If it comes to the crunch you can always bring out the I am diabetic or allergic for emergencies
Have a great day
Ann
The one thing that you do need to be aware of is to adjust how much you are eating as you lose weight. This week it has been the rotisserie chicken one of my favourites I have had to give it up I always overeat when I get it and I never take the skin off and obviously I have lost enough weight that it has now become a problem. So I have now taken it out of the calorie equation I have kept avocado and cheese in I have done this because I know the chicken is a problem for me and keeping my potion size under control.
Some people can control their portions no matter what the food is I can't I have a couple of foods that I really struggle with so I choose not to eat those particular foods. This is not for everybody but it works for me.
As a part of my journey I found that my weight loss had stop ed and my weight was actually going up even though I was sticking to my calorie count and doing some exercise this has happened before, so I started doing some investigation and it had been mentioned before by a friend and by others trying to lose weight it was called insulin resistance. A lot of my family suffer from type 2 diabetes's including 2 siblings a brother and a sister and some more distance relatives suffered from type 1 diabetes. I am not diabetic but I had 24 out of 26 of the symptoms of insulin resistance. This means that I am a candidate for type 2 diabetes and that some foods are a problem for me they create like an allergic reaction inside my body and I create too much insulin. To find this out at 48 it was a great eureka moment and at the same time it was why didn't anybody tell me about this before my life could have been so different.
Having this insulin resistance problem means that I have to be careful with certain foods. No Sugar or Grains in any form I also have to eliminate potato and be careful with other root vegetables. I have been able to re-introduce brown rice to my diet but definitely not white rice. I am careful with fruit No high carbohydrate fruits like banana's or melon's I stick to berries apples and citrus but only 3 small serves a day and always with protein to counteract the sugar. This new way of eating has made such a difference in my life I feel so much better I don't get the emotional highs and lows and my fluid retention has reduced significantly, my weight loss has been very regular since I started this new way of eating. I do have a relapse every now and again but the scale reminds me why it is a problem if I do indulge in foods I shouldn't and it takes about 2 weeks to fix it.
I started this blog talking about food I have trouble with so I avoid that particular food because I know I have no control its all or nothing, others seem to be able to indulge certain foods within their calorie range and therefore nothing is forbidden and then also the other extreme were they believe that they can never eat outside of a very strict diet. This is definitely a personal journey and you need to do what works for you and don't let anybody influence you in thinking that you need to do it differently or my favourite "a little bit wont hurt or you have been so good you should have a reward"" I made it especially for you or eat up I don't want any of it left or don't you like xxxx its my favourite" be polite but firm and that you are in control of what goes in your mouth. If it comes to the crunch you can always bring out the I am diabetic or allergic for emergencies
Have a great day
Ann
Friday, September 25, 2009
The Scale and Getting started
I weigh myself everyday this is not for everybody but you need to be in the right frame of mine to do this. I treat it as part of my day and it keeps me accountable I don't let the weight on the scale affect my day its just another tool on the weight loss journey. The way I lose weight is by chunks so I am quite happy if my weight stays the same or goes up a little because I know if I keep to my eating plan eventually my weight will go down by past experience I seem to be at my lightest in the middle of my cycle. You can find these things out by recording your weight everyday for about 3 months. The information comes in handy when your weight suddenly goes up 1.5 kilo's or 3lbs for no reason and stays there for about a week to 10 days and then starts going doing again it gives woman in particular information on what there body is doing in regard to fluid retention and at what time during the month, as long as I stick to my food plan and calories it always goes back down again. I really don't worry about how much I weigh until the end of the month and then see how I have gone for the whole month this gives me a much better picture of how I am going and stops the panicking over the scale going up a little.
Don't use the scale to beat yourself up or as an excuse to overeat because you didn't get the result you wanted. Losing weight is a marathon not a sprint so you need to look at the result on the scale as a guide to how you are going. The measuring tape is another really good guide to how well you are doing. What you have achieved in regard to exercise goals is also a good indicator as well as how you are feeling.
When I started this journey I was feeling really bad I was tired all the time I couldn't walk up a flight of stairs I wasn't sleeping very well and none of my clothes fitted. I was the heaviest I had ever been. I was very depressed and I had convinced myself this was how my life was going to be because I felt that at 48 I had left it too late, it wasn't possible to change. After getting home from a trip to visit family and friends, a very good friend of mine asked me that question you don't want anybody to ask and the one question you don't want to answer. He started with Ann I am really worried about you, what are you going to do about your weight I am concerned for your health. I said to him I know I need to do something about it I feel like I am out of control and at that moment because somebody had taken time to sit down with me and quietly ask the hard question I made a decision that I needed to do something about my lifestyle. I said to him I know I have to do this for my health but I want to do it slowly I want to get slimmer and fitter but I want to take it slowly small steps at a time (sparkpeople philosophy must have sunk in) I also knew that I had tried the fast way numerous times and it didn't work.
I started with a food tracker on sparkpeople and started counting calories nothing was out of bounds but it had to be tracked. SP gave me what I thought was a very generous calorie allowance and it was explained to me that a lot of people make the mistake of not eating enough I was definitely one of those. Because I don't like cooking I liked to use the meal replacements I obviously was not eating enough calories. I also started drinking water this wasn't that hard because I was a good water drinker anyway and gave up the Diet Coke I had a 3 can a day habit it wasn't doing me any good.
I also started to use frozen meals I knew that one of my biggest problems was portion control I had no idea of the correct amount of food to eat and how many calories were in that food. Lean Cuisines and Healthy Choice became my best friends I did supplement them with more vege's and just added in the calories. This helped a lot because I knew I was eating good food but I also new exactly how many calories I was eating. After about 2 months I was able to do a few meals for myself SP has a great tool for adding in a recipe and it gives you exactly what calories are in each portion I could break it all up and freeze it and it became a part of my food tracker.
I did this over quite a long period of time nearly 3 months I only really started exercising in the third month. I new I needed to get my food under some control before I could tackle the exercise as well. I did fall off the plan every now and then but once I had tracked my indiscretion and realised the calories I had eaten it was a big deterrent in straying to the bad side.
The biggest thing I discovered about this journey I had started was to change things slowly don't try to change everything at once its too hard. As soon as you feel you have one or two changes down add another one and so on. This is for life you need to be able to do this everyday a healthy lifestyle is something you do forever its not a diet that you go on and then stop its forever. You need to be able to live with the changes you have made forever.
Lifestyle changes are for life.
Ann
Don't use the scale to beat yourself up or as an excuse to overeat because you didn't get the result you wanted. Losing weight is a marathon not a sprint so you need to look at the result on the scale as a guide to how you are going. The measuring tape is another really good guide to how well you are doing. What you have achieved in regard to exercise goals is also a good indicator as well as how you are feeling.
When I started this journey I was feeling really bad I was tired all the time I couldn't walk up a flight of stairs I wasn't sleeping very well and none of my clothes fitted. I was the heaviest I had ever been. I was very depressed and I had convinced myself this was how my life was going to be because I felt that at 48 I had left it too late, it wasn't possible to change. After getting home from a trip to visit family and friends, a very good friend of mine asked me that question you don't want anybody to ask and the one question you don't want to answer. He started with Ann I am really worried about you, what are you going to do about your weight I am concerned for your health. I said to him I know I need to do something about it I feel like I am out of control and at that moment because somebody had taken time to sit down with me and quietly ask the hard question I made a decision that I needed to do something about my lifestyle. I said to him I know I have to do this for my health but I want to do it slowly I want to get slimmer and fitter but I want to take it slowly small steps at a time (sparkpeople philosophy must have sunk in) I also knew that I had tried the fast way numerous times and it didn't work.
I started with a food tracker on sparkpeople and started counting calories nothing was out of bounds but it had to be tracked. SP gave me what I thought was a very generous calorie allowance and it was explained to me that a lot of people make the mistake of not eating enough I was definitely one of those. Because I don't like cooking I liked to use the meal replacements I obviously was not eating enough calories. I also started drinking water this wasn't that hard because I was a good water drinker anyway and gave up the Diet Coke I had a 3 can a day habit it wasn't doing me any good.
I also started to use frozen meals I knew that one of my biggest problems was portion control I had no idea of the correct amount of food to eat and how many calories were in that food. Lean Cuisines and Healthy Choice became my best friends I did supplement them with more vege's and just added in the calories. This helped a lot because I knew I was eating good food but I also new exactly how many calories I was eating. After about 2 months I was able to do a few meals for myself SP has a great tool for adding in a recipe and it gives you exactly what calories are in each portion I could break it all up and freeze it and it became a part of my food tracker.
I did this over quite a long period of time nearly 3 months I only really started exercising in the third month. I new I needed to get my food under some control before I could tackle the exercise as well. I did fall off the plan every now and then but once I had tracked my indiscretion and realised the calories I had eaten it was a big deterrent in straying to the bad side.
The biggest thing I discovered about this journey I had started was to change things slowly don't try to change everything at once its too hard. As soon as you feel you have one or two changes down add another one and so on. This is for life you need to be able to do this everyday a healthy lifestyle is something you do forever its not a diet that you go on and then stop its forever. You need to be able to live with the changes you have made forever.
Lifestyle changes are for life.
Ann
Monday, September 21, 2009
Weigh In Post
Today I weighed in at 145kg or 319lb I have been around this weight for a couple of months and I need to give myself a kickstart to get it moving again. Definitely not enough excercise and a few empty calories over this time would not have helped. The main culprit is that I am back at University and my priorities have shifted. I need to make sure I can balance this new lifestyle the positive thing is that normally if I was not watching closely and was eating the way I used to I would have put on weight so I am definitely doing somethings right.
I subscribe to a couple of other bloggers and just by chance they happen to be men they are at two extremes of the weight loss agenda both had a lot of weight to loose. One has followed a very stricked diet and still does the other counts calories and as long as the item is in his calorie range he eats it and they both excercise one exercises a lot the other exerises regularly. Two very different ways of losing weight both successful. I do a combination I count calories and I restrict certain foods I also excercise although inconsistently. Losing weight is a very personal thing and what these two super losers (weight that is) have taught me I have to do it my way and what works for me because everybody is different.
A couple of my biggest issues are emotional eating, binge eating, sugar and simple carb cravings and lack of excercise, I got to a stage were I was very uncomfortable moving so I didn't. With the help of Sparkpeople I have been able to modify my diet so that I don't crave the sugar and simple carbs my binge eating is completely under control the final hurdle really is the emotional eating I still struggle with this one. I excercise I really enjoy swimming so I started to swim I now do 1600 metres or 1 mile regularly I have just started some strength or resistance training moves, I wouldn't call it training just yet, I need to get some consistency with my excercise.
I got a little angry with myself on the weekend I live no more than 500mtres to the beach but I rarely go there. I think its because I decided to go to the beach I should be exercising. I don't like walking as in power walking getting all sweaty not being able to breath I don't enjoy that sort of walk. I really enjoy walking just walking enjoying the scenery and being outdoors and strolling along talking to people and patting there dogs. So I decided thats what I will do so this morning I got up a bit earlier chucked on some shorts and a top and strolled down to the beach and enjoyed half and hour strolling. What a great way to start the day the sun coming up over the water strolling on one of the nicest beaches on the east coast.
We need to do what we like doing and we need to be able to live with our choices for a lifetime.
Thanks Ann
I subscribe to a couple of other bloggers and just by chance they happen to be men they are at two extremes of the weight loss agenda both had a lot of weight to loose. One has followed a very stricked diet and still does the other counts calories and as long as the item is in his calorie range he eats it and they both excercise one exercises a lot the other exerises regularly. Two very different ways of losing weight both successful. I do a combination I count calories and I restrict certain foods I also excercise although inconsistently. Losing weight is a very personal thing and what these two super losers (weight that is) have taught me I have to do it my way and what works for me because everybody is different.
A couple of my biggest issues are emotional eating, binge eating, sugar and simple carb cravings and lack of excercise, I got to a stage were I was very uncomfortable moving so I didn't. With the help of Sparkpeople I have been able to modify my diet so that I don't crave the sugar and simple carbs my binge eating is completely under control the final hurdle really is the emotional eating I still struggle with this one. I excercise I really enjoy swimming so I started to swim I now do 1600 metres or 1 mile regularly I have just started some strength or resistance training moves, I wouldn't call it training just yet, I need to get some consistency with my excercise.
I got a little angry with myself on the weekend I live no more than 500mtres to the beach but I rarely go there. I think its because I decided to go to the beach I should be exercising. I don't like walking as in power walking getting all sweaty not being able to breath I don't enjoy that sort of walk. I really enjoy walking just walking enjoying the scenery and being outdoors and strolling along talking to people and patting there dogs. So I decided thats what I will do so this morning I got up a bit earlier chucked on some shorts and a top and strolled down to the beach and enjoyed half and hour strolling. What a great way to start the day the sun coming up over the water strolling on one of the nicest beaches on the east coast.
We need to do what we like doing and we need to be able to live with our choices for a lifetime.
Thanks Ann
Sunday, September 20, 2009
The Journey Continues
I have just made the decision to go public with my journey. I need to be accountable and honest with what I am trying to achieve and I am hoping that in some way I may be able to help others. I have been overweight all my life and I have struggled with being an overweight woman in this body concious, looks concious society. A lot of the time I have ignored being overweight hoping that it would disappear or I accepted the weight and decided that this is my lot and I just have to deal with it, I accepted that I was different and fitted in with others that were also a bit different I became there champion. I also craved deep down to be the same as everyone else.
I have sacrificed a family and partner so that I could be overweight. I know, why would you want to be overweight I have ask myself the same question a lot and now that I have started to be honest with myself I believe its protection, its an excuse, it means I don't have to get out of my comfort zone, I have a ready made excuse for not achieving or reaching my goals, I can give up without guilt and the best one of all is that I can blame something else for my life not being everything that I want it to be.
I am 48 years old my highest weight was 166kg or 365lb This was the position I found myself in in Febuary 2009. I have been on a cycle of losing weight and gaining it back with interest since I was 16 years old. I have decided that enough is enough and I don't want to hide behind my fat anymore. I am a strong person and stubborn and I have a strong belief that I can beat this thing I want my life to be better I am going to give this gift to myself because I deserve it.
I started this journey of discovery in Febuary of this year I joined an online health based weight loss group called Sparkpeople (its free) in July the previous year another one of my five year cycle attemps. I seem to do that every five years I make some sort of effort to lose weight and end up putting more on at the time Sparkpeople seemed very overwhelming but I kept getting the information emails and I would read some and they got me thinking I need to do something about my weight maybe this is the way to go it was a start.
Sparkpeople advocate eat healthy and excercise, I know I hate that too, can't I just take a pill or a meal replacement shake, I have had success in the past with pills and shakes and such like. I then had to agree that the success had been very short lived ok I lost weight and sometimes a lot of weight but it would always come back and more. Sparkpeople advocate changing your lifestyle for good start slowly and change your habits. This is what I have been doing for the last nine months baby steps changing my eating habits and excercising more.
I have lost 23 kilo's or 50lb I must admit its the longest I have taken to lose that much weight but it has definitely been the best learning I have done. I know now why I binge eat I know when I eat emotionaly I now know what triggers hunger pains. I have the tools and I need to use them everyday. I am hoping to loose another 70 kilo's and at the same time increase my fitness. I don't want to be an athlete I just want to have good general fitness so I can do the things I want to be able to do.
I will be posting a few times a week and I will relate back to some of the things I have gone through and some of the problems I am facing now.
Thankyou www.sparkpeople.com
Ann
I have sacrificed a family and partner so that I could be overweight. I know, why would you want to be overweight I have ask myself the same question a lot and now that I have started to be honest with myself I believe its protection, its an excuse, it means I don't have to get out of my comfort zone, I have a ready made excuse for not achieving or reaching my goals, I can give up without guilt and the best one of all is that I can blame something else for my life not being everything that I want it to be.
I am 48 years old my highest weight was 166kg or 365lb This was the position I found myself in in Febuary 2009. I have been on a cycle of losing weight and gaining it back with interest since I was 16 years old. I have decided that enough is enough and I don't want to hide behind my fat anymore. I am a strong person and stubborn and I have a strong belief that I can beat this thing I want my life to be better I am going to give this gift to myself because I deserve it.
I started this journey of discovery in Febuary of this year I joined an online health based weight loss group called Sparkpeople (its free) in July the previous year another one of my five year cycle attemps. I seem to do that every five years I make some sort of effort to lose weight and end up putting more on at the time Sparkpeople seemed very overwhelming but I kept getting the information emails and I would read some and they got me thinking I need to do something about my weight maybe this is the way to go it was a start.
Sparkpeople advocate eat healthy and excercise, I know I hate that too, can't I just take a pill or a meal replacement shake, I have had success in the past with pills and shakes and such like. I then had to agree that the success had been very short lived ok I lost weight and sometimes a lot of weight but it would always come back and more. Sparkpeople advocate changing your lifestyle for good start slowly and change your habits. This is what I have been doing for the last nine months baby steps changing my eating habits and excercising more.
I have lost 23 kilo's or 50lb I must admit its the longest I have taken to lose that much weight but it has definitely been the best learning I have done. I know now why I binge eat I know when I eat emotionaly I now know what triggers hunger pains. I have the tools and I need to use them everyday. I am hoping to loose another 70 kilo's and at the same time increase my fitness. I don't want to be an athlete I just want to have good general fitness so I can do the things I want to be able to do.
I will be posting a few times a week and I will relate back to some of the things I have gone through and some of the problems I am facing now.
Thankyou www.sparkpeople.com
Ann
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